I have a feeling that I have talked about this before but due to the fact sleep in an ongoing issue I am going to talk about it again. This time I am going to talk about the effect on the whole family and not just Mini-man.
I can count the number of times Mini-man has slept through the night. I has put a big strain on the family due to chronic sleep derivation every one right on down to Micro-man.
I worry about what that does to out family, it seems at times like we all have shorter then normal tempers and little interest in what is going on in favor of rest. I worry that the sleep deprivation is causing developmental issues in Micro-man and he will suffer in life due to that. While I due know most of those feeling are just mommy guilt it still is there.
DH is having issues to, mostly in the form he is completely useless when he gets home from work leaving me all the house work. At times I think he is faking how tired he is cause he does get more sleep then me and I am doing more then he does at least physically. All of this is putting a strain on our marriage. I worry how we will survive if any chance we get to do something all we do is sleep and we are not talking due to this.
Then there is me. I find that I am less able to interact or work with the boys when I am this tired I just want to do what is needed and rest. I feel like I am being the worse parent in the world. The other thing it does is makes me almost mean. I am not easy going or as relaxed as normal. I feel bad cause I will snap at people although I try not.
All in all I feel like we are surviving but not thriving. I hope when we get the sleep figured out we can all rest and be better people and a better family.