ASD

I thought I was prepared to hear the diagnosis
I was not
I thought I would find a miracle cure
I have not
I looked for a cause
I found none
I have looked for some one to blame
I found no one

So now I have started on this journey with you

I use to watch you struggle
Now I struggle with you
I use to let you shut me out
Now I barge in
I use to just let you be
Now I make you join us

I thought you would never be like other
This thought saddened me
Now I see how special you are

It may be years before you call me mommy
I don't care.
I will be daddy as long as you want.

I will be what you need
I will care for you
I will protect you
I will help you because I love you.

All I really want to say is you are my special boy
I love you Mini-Mane
Stay strong and don't let any one tell you are broken
You are not
you are you and you are perfect just the way you are.

This is something I have been working on for my son. I hope some day to share this poor attempt at expressing myself and this blog with him. I want him to know that I love him and want to help I am just lost at what to do.